You know when your life is so full you're choking on it? I mean, it should be a very pleasant thing, a full life. In the Christian tradition, we wax on and on about a cup that overflows. But has anyone ever stopped to think about the mess that an overflowing cup makes? And who's going to clean that mess up?!
Don't get me wrong now... ever since I realized that I wasn't living life to the hilt, I've been on a mission to do just that. So, every once in a while, when I actually man up and do live life to the fullest, my cup overflows and spills joy everywhere and who's left cleaning that up? Me, of course.
Gosh, can't you see that I'm busy living life and I can't be bothered cleaning up this joy and happiness splashing around everywhere? I simply can't be taken away from this full life, there's not a moment to spare.
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I went on this random tangent tonight because lately, I've been a very busy bee. And it's been great; I've been to weddings, birthday parties, lunches with friends, retreats at the beach, shopping for friends, this 'n that, you know, this 'n that.
Enjoying it all, of course. But in the times in between these fabulous events, I find myself getting snappy and short tempered and annoyed... wayyyy too easily. For example, I went by (a store that will remain nameless) to get a card. Finding their selection not to my taste, I blurted out "these cards are lame." And right as I said it, I went "gasp! Leigh Ann! You sound like one of those distasteful girls who is nothing but a pain in the arse! Take it back! take it back right now! Someone needs to check their attitude at the door." Let me clarify that the card selection was indeed lame. But I didn't have to voice my concerns. Especially since I was alone and anyone nearby would probably think I would want them to agree with me and that just puts them in an awkward spot.... so it was just dumb of me to be so critical aloud. Besides, if I wasn't in a bit of a time crunch, I wouldn't have cared so much and most likely kept my thoughts to myself.
And that whole situation made me think. Despite the fact that so many wonderful things are going on around me and with me, it's stressing me out! Ha! The busier I get, doing awesome things with awesome people, the easier it is for me to fly off the handle at the most trifle of events. Isn't that so strange... it seems like there is a yin-yang side to everything. There isn't extreme happiness without extreme emptiness. If you look for it, you'll see the dark side to all the joy in life. If you look for it, you'll see all the beauty attached to the ugly in this world. Its all there, we just don't bother ourselves to really look for it. I'm especially bad at only taking things for surface appearances.
Anyway, that's enough about that.
I just got back from a super wonderful birthday dinner with fantastic friends, and we laughed the whole time, told stories, ate delish grub, and laughed a whole lot more. Tomorrow, I'm getting up at the BUTT crack of dawn to go to the beach! For an orientation to the Haiti trip. (SO STOKED!) Then, Sunday I hope to spend with my bestest friend and then go to church in the PM. And maybe read some. Or knit. Or play with Rosie. Or do the crossword. Or sudoku! Or pick flowers. Then make a daisy chain and dance in a circle and hug a tree. Sometimes I have a limit to how much cuteness I can handle in a day and since I was around the most precious babies this evening, my quota has been over-drawn and now I'm a weeeee bit sarcastic.
Enjoying it all, of course. But in the times in between these fabulous events, I find myself getting snappy and short tempered and annoyed... wayyyy too easily. For example, I went by (a store that will remain nameless) to get a card. Finding their selection not to my taste, I blurted out "these cards are lame." And right as I said it, I went "gasp! Leigh Ann! You sound like one of those distasteful girls who is nothing but a pain in the arse! Take it back! take it back right now! Someone needs to check their attitude at the door." Let me clarify that the card selection was indeed lame. But I didn't have to voice my concerns. Especially since I was alone and anyone nearby would probably think I would want them to agree with me and that just puts them in an awkward spot.... so it was just dumb of me to be so critical aloud. Besides, if I wasn't in a bit of a time crunch, I wouldn't have cared so much and most likely kept my thoughts to myself.
And that whole situation made me think. Despite the fact that so many wonderful things are going on around me and with me, it's stressing me out! Ha! The busier I get, doing awesome things with awesome people, the easier it is for me to fly off the handle at the most trifle of events. Isn't that so strange... it seems like there is a yin-yang side to everything. There isn't extreme happiness without extreme emptiness. If you look for it, you'll see the dark side to all the joy in life. If you look for it, you'll see all the beauty attached to the ugly in this world. Its all there, we just don't bother ourselves to really look for it. I'm especially bad at only taking things for surface appearances.
Anyway, that's enough about that.
I just got back from a super wonderful birthday dinner with fantastic friends, and we laughed the whole time, told stories, ate delish grub, and laughed a whole lot more. Tomorrow, I'm getting up at the BUTT crack of dawn to go to the beach! For an orientation to the Haiti trip. (SO STOKED!) Then, Sunday I hope to spend with my bestest friend and then go to church in the PM. And maybe read some. Or knit. Or play with Rosie. Or do the crossword. Or sudoku! Or pick flowers. Then make a daisy chain and dance in a circle and hug a tree. Sometimes I have a limit to how much cuteness I can handle in a day and since I was around the most precious babies this evening, my quota has been over-drawn and now I'm a weeeee bit sarcastic.
That being said, I am now done and will go get that daisy chain started.
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